I just finished watching "facing the Giants" and God just overwhelmed me! I cant help tearing hearing it being repeated again and again that with God all things are possible!
I've been self seeking, a lover of self in certain ways and have questioned my faith whether it has just been an illusion but NO, the Lord is not done with me and He wont let me go! He just won't, and kept speaking to me through the show that He will not give up on me no matter what. I truly just stand in awe and amazement at what the Lord can do through man and how much His love extends. Can I be a little greedy and ask for more? Lord will you give me more? Will you not stop touching and convicting me and moving me to make decisions for and with you?
Give me the wisdom to know what is pleasing in your sight then give me the strength and courage to do it! Speak to me concerning what I must do! Will you liberate all fears and disappointments and set us free! let the truth burn in our hearts! Fan it into flame Lord and give me back the spirit of POWER, LOVE AND SOUND MIND! Let me come back into your presence and allow the Holy Spirit to take over! teach me and guide me to slowly but inevitably surrender all to you! and put a heart in me that desires no more then to please you!
But the voice of truth tells me a different story
the voice of truth says "do not be afraid!"
and the voice of truth says "this is for my glory"
Out of all the voices calling out to me
I will choose to listen and believe the voice of truth
Friday, 19 December 2008
Matthew 19:16-26, Mark 10:17-30,Luke 18:18-30 (The Rich Young Man)
I'm the rich young man/ruler! I've many riches in this world but are unwilling to part with them for Christ sake. I see that i have no lack in any area of my life! Yes such arrogance but am i not right? what more do i need? Perhaps more knowledge and wisdom but these i will never stop seeking. what then?
I've kept the commandments like the young man, and is now seeking the way to eternal life BUT no I'm not ready to put down all my riches and simply follow! My identity have been partly build upon all these riches, and they have given me the confidence that i have. Do not be mistaken, i'm not talking about monetary riches but riches in every single area of life. who can say that i lack? Passion for the sick and those in need still burns in my heart and i've a great desire for them. Talents and attitude for success is within me, no doubt arrogant and complacent too, but with care, meticulous planning and right approach what can stop me from achieving what i want? Love is definitely something that I dont lack, there are many who regards highly of me and love me for who i am. Be it Teachers, Peers, Family, Church, Brothers and Sisters. They have so much faith in me, believing I'll do something great. I've also gain the trust of many people. Many trust, believe and have faith in me! What then do i lack? TELL ME!!!
I'm not willing to just let everything go, sacrifice everything and follow You! Cant i carry them with me while following You? I recognize you are the way but must i give it up? Must i give it all up? Why? Why give it to me in the 1st place when you want me to let go? Its so difficult! I read through my journal of my mission trip and my past posts and i wonder where have the passion that i used to have gone! The desire so deep that I was willing to give up anything to follow after you. Have I been so taken in by the world that I've conformed to the world?
Lord would you stand by and do nothing? would you not continue your work in me and let your promise come to past in my life? Lord I ask, according to your word, that you come and create in me a new heart again, one that is humble enough to submit and surrender for it is so difficult to do so. let me stop going in this cycle of believing I'm self sufficient and the arrogance that irks even myself! I'm sure you find it distasteful too so Lord, answer me and come and do something within me. From the inside out! PLEASE!
I've kept the commandments like the young man, and is now seeking the way to eternal life BUT no I'm not ready to put down all my riches and simply follow! My identity have been partly build upon all these riches, and they have given me the confidence that i have. Do not be mistaken, i'm not talking about monetary riches but riches in every single area of life. who can say that i lack? Passion for the sick and those in need still burns in my heart and i've a great desire for them. Talents and attitude for success is within me, no doubt arrogant and complacent too, but with care, meticulous planning and right approach what can stop me from achieving what i want? Love is definitely something that I dont lack, there are many who regards highly of me and love me for who i am. Be it Teachers, Peers, Family, Church, Brothers and Sisters. They have so much faith in me, believing I'll do something great. I've also gain the trust of many people. Many trust, believe and have faith in me! What then do i lack? TELL ME!!!
I'm not willing to just let everything go, sacrifice everything and follow You! Cant i carry them with me while following You? I recognize you are the way but must i give it up? Must i give it all up? Why? Why give it to me in the 1st place when you want me to let go? Its so difficult! I read through my journal of my mission trip and my past posts and i wonder where have the passion that i used to have gone! The desire so deep that I was willing to give up anything to follow after you. Have I been so taken in by the world that I've conformed to the world?
Lord would you stand by and do nothing? would you not continue your work in me and let your promise come to past in my life? Lord I ask, according to your word, that you come and create in me a new heart again, one that is humble enough to submit and surrender for it is so difficult to do so. let me stop going in this cycle of believing I'm self sufficient and the arrogance that irks even myself! I'm sure you find it distasteful too so Lord, answer me and come and do something within me. From the inside out! PLEASE!
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