Coincidence?

So very often we meet with coincidences whereby people like the same thing and certain things happen in such a way we identify them as coincidence. Too often have we just cast it aside and consider them random coincidence that we do not see the hand of God in our midst.

Just 2 nights ago (the night Long went over to Woodbridge), I saw how evident God's grace is upon my bro's life. Sometimes I too wonder if he over 'Spiritualize' things, but guess it’s the reality of God so evident in his life that he can’t stop bringing God into the picture. I was just laying in bed half asleep half praying, trust me my mind was no where near my brother. I can’t be bothered with him especially when he can be really erratic sometimes. Going to Woodbridge late in the night without bringing his hand phone? You get my point, he almost belong there. =) Then all of a sudden I remembered him still outside, not sure if he got a key. Like I told you I can’t be bothered so I continue laying there until it kept coming back to me so I thought I might as well go out and keep my gates unlock for him. Little did I know that he did have the keys and here is where the ‘coincidence’ takes place.

Just as I was walking to open the door, I heard him turning the knob. The thing is he kept turning the knob but never pushing the door in. So I walked over to find the door locked so I help him unlock it. And guess what? Timing couldn’t have been more perfect. Normally our door would not be locked with just the gate locked but that night it was locked and I had no idea. He had the keys to the gate alright but he didn’t know that the door was locked. I came just in time to unlock it to let him in. well what can I say?

I wasn’t even the one receiving the grace but I saw it! Coincidence? Maybe you can reconsider a little?

Heavenly Father, pardon us if we ever brush your hand of Grace aside forgetting to give you due Glory for the things you’ve done in our lives. Open up the eyes of our heart to see ever so clearly You right in the midst of all that trouble.

My A Level Results

I’ve gotten my results and I’m pleased to announce that I’ve got a full certificate! I’m grateful and Praise God that I passed everything including math (I only got 3/100 in mid years and 23/100 in prelims) and got a full A level certificate which means I meet the requirements of Officer Cadet School (OCS). Well of course the results are not desirable, for one, I neither have any As nor Bs(not including mother tongue considering that I’ve taken it twice) and another would be that I had only achieve an E for my General Paper (GP). My grades are:

H1 General Paper: E
H2 Mathematics: D
H2 Biology: C
H2 Chemistry: C
H1 Geography: C
H1 Chinese: A
H1 Project Work: B

This earns me a total of 66/90 for my University Score.

Frankly speaking I’m definitely most disappointed with myself. I know I’m fully capable of getting better results if I have not been so foolish and arrogant to believe that I could make it like I did with my O levels. A well learnt lesson though. I believe this would serve most useful as a reminder to give my best and excel in whatever I’m doing and to keep that arrogance in me in check.

Perhaps I should get back to my topic on my previous post. Where have we laid our hopes on for our future? Money? Perhaps too many have not properly confronted the purpose of their existent and their life to an extent that they just do what everyone else is doing around them and try to beat the rest at it. Is this you? Do you live a purpose driven life?

I think it’s a good time I go through this again before I make any further decision concerning my future! As what Pst Don says yesterday during service, it’s not what you go through that determines your future, but your choices and decision concerning what you’re going through. So why do you still allow circumstances imprison you?

Results and its implications on our Future

Tomorrow is the big day as so many have said! We’re getting our A level results at last. Well of course being one of the slackest students in class, not much seems to be in stall for my results. Things have change I guess ever since I became a Disciple! It doesn’t seem important to me anymore what I get though I know I’m going to be a disappointment not just to myself but to many who have long put their faith in me. I must admit I dread the thoughts of having broken and disappoint so many hearts but my apology shall not suffice. I believe the only thing that would suffice would be to learn from this and make sure that no matter what I do in the future I give my best and get my best out of it! I hope it’s not too late to learn this important lesson in life.

Even as the date draws near, a lot of friends have expressed their concern for the bleak future that seems to hold true for some of them. There are lots to consider upon getting our results as it will really determine our career. But it does not determine our Future! Maybe you need me to repeat that for it to sink in a little, OUR RESULTS ARE NOT GOING TO DETERMINE OUR FUTURE! I wonder how the notion ever come about but have you heard of this: you study to get a good education so that you get a good job so that you get a good pay in order to live a happy life. Somewhere along that line. In which I find no logic. Where has the purpose of life gone? What is happiness? If you happen to have never thought of this then i believe its a good time to start.

Got to go send Jia Xian off for his mission trip so shall continue tonight. Take a serious thought over it!

Meditation Verse on Proverbs 25:2

My Pastor started this thing called the meditation verse last year in our church to help us grow in the word and I’m amazed at how much it has lead me to grow and understand the word of God! Every week, a verse or few verses will be given to us to ponder and meditate upon for the whole week and on Sunday, we will share what God have spoken to us concerning the verse/verses. This week’s meditation verse is Proverbs 25:2, “It is the glory of God to conceal a matter; to search out a matter is the glory of kings” (NIV). I felt lead to share and so I shared! I’m still amazed at the revelation God gave me concerning this 1 verse!

Well actually God brought to my mind an analogy but well did not manage to share it with the church but I believe what I said was what the Lord had intended for me to share! As for the rest of you here, you get to hear the whole thing! To those that seek, God will give you all the more!

When I read this verse on Sunday night last Sunday, the 1^st thing that came to my mind was that this is exactly what we’re doing meditation verses for! The word of God is hidden with many wisdom and knowledge which can only be found by those that seek for them. And that is where God’s glory and our glory can be found! Matthew 13:10-11 says: ‘the disciples came to Him and asked, “Why do you speak to the people in parables?” He replied them, “the knowledge of the secrets of the kingdom of God have been given to you, but not to them.’(NIV) Jesus wasn’t showing favouritism to His disciples but because they inquired and desire to know and seek for the answer, it was revealed to them! And this is their glory as kings of the Kingdom for they were men of God, after God’s heart! Anyway all this didn’t come to me the 1^st time I read, I still had to meditate upon it throughout the week.

But the Lord revealed yet some more! (Some parts here were not shared in church.) I’m sure everyone is aware that everyone has their own struggles and has their own problems. And so very often we ask the most asked question: why? Why did this happen? Why didn't He stop it? Why am i not happier? Why did He allow it? Well its natural that we ask why, and often never get answered but you see that’s where the Glory of God is. Funny I should say that right?

Well when I was born, I was an extremely over weight baby weighing 5+ kg. (So far I only found 1 that’s heavier then I am in my whole life) But even though I was overweight, I was low on blood sugar and had to be on a glucose drip. And as I was sickly having asthma and all that sort of thing, I had lots of drips and needles poking into my body. Even in places you would never have thought possible. I also had a certain vitamin deficiency such that my dad had to back me in the sun everyday to get that vitamin (I believe its vitamin D). Seriously who would have thought I was ever that sickly? Going to the hospital was a common family trip. But the thing is as I was a baby, I didn’t ask why, much less understand the why. All I had was my parents who would comfort me and sooth me in my pain and suffering. All I had to do was to rely on them for even as a baby I had no power to take my own life. And that was what I found to be so true today. We may be in pain, great pain and do not understand why and yet when we wished we could just end our life, we don’t have the power to. All we can do is to trust and rely on out Heavenly Father trusting in His sovereignty! He is our shepherd and He is good and faithful! That is where His Glory lies! In us trusting and seeking Him in the midst of all those troubles! He may conceal the why but as long as we have Him, is it not enough?

Do you understand His Glory and the Glory that you and I are entitled to receive? Seek to shine His Glory and attain Glory for yourself then.

Oh and not to forget to thank God for my dad for giving me a massage to relieve my muscle aches. Just to give him (my dad) some credit! =)

Heavenly Father i commit my earthly father's salvation into your hands!

Leap Year Mannalife

Yesterday was really an unusual, extraordinary Friday night! I would have blogged about it yesterday night if not for my exhausted physical body. We had the privilege of having Reverend Victor again! He came once and preached at our church on Sunday on the 17^th of February. However unfortunate for me, I was in the Sunday School teaching my little adorable children! That is not to say I didn’t enjoy myself in there, but upon hearing how Rev Victor preached yesterday night, I was caught off guard and I got to admit his anointed and his one of a kind!

Just some background on him if you’re interested: he came from America and used to be a gangster there until you know what! GOD touched his life! God RAN to him! Well what I heard about the differences in the gangsters in America and here in Singapore is that guns are more available in America, or should I say they have guns while we don’t at all. So you can expect more death there in their day to day troubles. On the Sunday when I didn’t get to hear him speak, I saw him and could recognise him as a gangster from his looks. Seriously he has that look, no joke.

Rev Victor’s sermon do not have lots of notes to take which I would normally prefer because that would mean I’m learning a lot. But yet every word he speaks forth seems to be stirring something in the spirit realm. I would not think it exaggerating to say that everyone in church got touched by the Holy Spirit yesterday night. Truly not by might, nor by power but by the Spirit of God, each and every one of us got changed one way or another and I just can’t wait to see what God is going to do in the midst of us and where He is leading us!

People may be out there getting themselves drunk at pubs and bars on this Friday night but we’re not losing out because we’re in the House of God getting drunk with the Holy Spirit! We were receiving Fresh Breath, Fresh Wind, Fresh Fire as we entered straight into the enemy’s camp and remind him that the gates of hell shall not prevail and take back what have been taken from us! Such boldness did we have as we got drunk in the Holy Spirit! After preaching for slightly more then half an hour, as he was led by the Holy Spirit, he told us to put our hands on our head and he got us to deal with our mind and get us to lay down what each one of us is struggling with. He wanted our minds to align itself with the word and ways of our Lord and to get rid of every other thing. And it so occurred to me now that the “Battlefield of our Mind” did mention that how we need to get right our thoughts and ways of understanding in our mind making the mind a fertile and conducive ground. He was telling us how we need to prepare ourselves for an alter call through the renewing of our mind and he continued preaching on and on!

But the best part didn’t come till he stopped preaching and asked for an alter call! Well it wasn’t an alter call actually cause every one was asked to come to the front and participate in calling forth to God and receive! Like I’ve previously expressed it has been a while, a year perhaps since I got the chance like yesterday night to go down to the front and feel the Holy Spirit in our midst! And there are no words to express that experience! I did not experience or feel much yesterday as I usually do with trembling but there’s this recognition within my Spirit that He indeed is here. I wasn’t in the best of mood honestly but I disregard how I felt and focus on asking our Heavenly Father for all that He has for this church. As I was praising and praying in the Spirit, Rev Victor was going around and I could see people slain! I have never had a true experience of being slain and I was wishing how I could be in front and not serving as a back up singer! But well I still had a great time being ministered to. I don’t know why but when I saw Yang Jun being slain I started crying, tears came down which I find absurd as I didn’t know what they were for. But there was a joy in my Spirit to see more of what He is doing and is going to do and I cried out for Him to come and show us! I was not going to let go I cried! I believed I held my hands up there for more then half an hour (If you didn’t know how difficult it is you should give it a try)! And we did see a friend of Uncle Paul, Ali, saved! Praise God! Nothing was going to stop us from being blessed that night! Thank God for granting the desire of my heart as He led Rev Victor to ask the Levites to come to the front like everyone else and position ourselves to receive as a church the blessing our Heavenly Father is pouring out! Pastor Ronald later then Prophesy of how we’re going to take up our Apostolic role and be shining forth His great Glory by reflecting of ourselves His Glory!

We ended up ending our meeting at 2305! Then we quickly went and ‘clear’ the refreshments with our mouths before all of us left! Thank God there was transport provided for us or else we would not have been able to get home by then! God is an all providing God! WOW! I just feel so refreshed and energized by what He has done yesterday night! The gates of Hell shall not prevail, and we shall take up our rightful places, being chosen to be vessels to work WITH an almighty God! Aren’t you excited? I AM! WOW!

It is a pity for those that did not manage to turn up! But hear the good new because God is in the good business and He is not willing to let those not blessed be left unblessed! He is determined to get to you so, He sent Rev Victor back next week for MannaLife AGAIN! I seriously urge and encourage all to come and see and experience the Spirit of God for yourselves! Just in case you didn’t find what I experienced convincing, Kor Rennie shared what he experienced on the Sunday service so you can see for yourself what you missed out on! For all you know by the time you go he already had a new post concerning yesterday night! I’m sure my brother would also be sharing so go on up and take a look!

WE’RE SO BLESSED!

Thank you Heavenly Father for sending this servant of yours at such a time to encourage and urge us to draw and tap upon all that you have! Indeed we have been most blessed! I pray that as you pour down abundantly your blessing and love, we would indeed be filled and over flowing such that it would not be by our efforts but by Yours that people all around us shall be able to be blessed as we are blessed! Do not stop doing the deep work you are doing in the midst of us, never give up on us and do not depart away from us for you know we are able to accomplish nothing being apart from you! Change us from the inside out! Give us the ‘whatever’ attitude such that whatever you say, we’ll just reply: “WHATEVER you say Lord!” Make us drunk with the Holy Spirit! Lord i acknowledge your very presence here in the midst of us!