After some time I’ve come to realise that I’m again on that same journey towards nowhere, lost again in the midst of everything. All alone choosing to walk without God. Sometimes don’t you just feel that you’re capable of living this life without God? You’re smart enough to deal with the situations that come, courage to face the fears… the line goes on but yet why do I feel this emptiness in my heart? Despite God’s faithfulness, I seem to have concluded that even without God I would have been great. Look at how arrogant I can get! Disgusting but yet this is who I am. I need to learn humility like never before! Will I never learn from my mistakes?
That’s the price to pay I guess for forsaking God but thank God His people never cease to pray and encourages me in the faith! HAIZ! So much head knowledge but not in my heart! Zhen Ming warned me bout this! Need to pray more to understand better His will for me, church and His people! Sometimes I don’t even know why I do the things I do, trying to be righteous, upright. No wonder pastor says we’ll never make it by our own effort.
Sorry Lord for forsaking you and believing I’m capable enough to live this life of mine without your grace so freely given! Open up my eyes to see that the fear of the Lord is the beginning of wisdom! And truly I will be able to live my life wisely! Teach me humility for pride will be my downfall. You’ve been ever so faithful never choosing to forsake me sending all the encouragements around me and constantly reminding me that you’re near! Thank you Lord!
Wednesday, 18 June 2008
Thursday, 12 June 2008
afterthoughts of POP
Life in BMT sure looks likes a breeze after how it has passed me by these 9 weeks. I really can’t bear to leave all those great friends that I have gotten so close to over the 9 weeks. As the Chinese saying goes, there’s never a party that will never end. But the wonderful memories will serve me well in the days ahead!
I’ve been very loved by a lot of people, especially by Aunt Sarah, my other mum! She’s just like a Mother to me and she treats me like a son! Every week without fail, I’ll get some ginseng soup of some kind. My 1st 2 book out I got ginseng soup but as I found it too bitter (not told to her but she observed that I drank so slowly and made the conclusion) that she changed it to ginseng chicken soup! IT WAS DELICIOUS! Even when she was going to Hong Kong, She slept at 2 and woke up at 5 to cook and bring it to church and left after praise and worship! If that’s not love, I don’t know what is! Love you Aunt Sarah! I’ve just been extremely blessed and loved! I can never stop praising God for how he has drawn me into this wonderful family! And its not just Aunt Sarah lets not forget my little children. Their hugs and kisses every time I went to church revitalize me and made me feel so much loved. Aunt Esther even told me that every Sunday before their family left the house Marilyn would ask Aunt Esther if Kor Kor Cheng En would be going! Isn’t that sweet? Last but not least would be my 2 mei meis who would text or call to encourage, especially Min Min Mei Mei. It’s just … AWESOME to know that people care, love and remember you!
I was very glad that on my POP day, my whole family including Aunt Sarah’s family could make it! I really enjoyed myself that day as we took pictures, shared and have dinner together. Guess what Aunt Sarah brought me Bird Nest! Told you I’m blessed! =D oh and it was such a coincidence that my platoon commander is actually one of my father’s trainee! Talk about a coincidence eh!
The Lord has indeed been faithful, VERY faithful!
I’ve been very loved by a lot of people, especially by Aunt Sarah, my other mum! She’s just like a Mother to me and she treats me like a son! Every week without fail, I’ll get some ginseng soup of some kind. My 1st 2 book out I got ginseng soup but as I found it too bitter (not told to her but she observed that I drank so slowly and made the conclusion) that she changed it to ginseng chicken soup! IT WAS DELICIOUS! Even when she was going to Hong Kong, She slept at 2 and woke up at 5 to cook and bring it to church and left after praise and worship! If that’s not love, I don’t know what is! Love you Aunt Sarah! I’ve just been extremely blessed and loved! I can never stop praising God for how he has drawn me into this wonderful family! And its not just Aunt Sarah lets not forget my little children. Their hugs and kisses every time I went to church revitalize me and made me feel so much loved. Aunt Esther even told me that every Sunday before their family left the house Marilyn would ask Aunt Esther if Kor Kor Cheng En would be going! Isn’t that sweet? Last but not least would be my 2 mei meis who would text or call to encourage, especially Min Min Mei Mei. It’s just … AWESOME to know that people care, love and remember you!
I was very glad that on my POP day, my whole family including Aunt Sarah’s family could make it! I really enjoyed myself that day as we took pictures, shared and have dinner together. Guess what Aunt Sarah brought me Bird Nest! Told you I’m blessed! =D oh and it was such a coincidence that my platoon commander is actually one of my father’s trainee! Talk about a coincidence eh!
The Lord has indeed been faithful, VERY faithful!
Subscribe to:
Posts (Atom)
