The Last Week of January

Its been a hectic week having Instructor's Development Programme, Planning for Friday night for my BRO gang and For Saturday night. Sometimes don't you just wish you have a personal assistant to help you take care of certain administrative matters while you can focus on more important things like planning and so on.

Currently I feel like I'm just planning all this so that my parents will be pleased. I'm rather sure that if Aunt Sarah haven't kept asking my mum and if not for Wei Ting's Birthday, I won't be celebrating mine. Its not really for me cause if it is, why am I doing all the things? The buffet, the cake, the place, the arrangement of activities, the decorations... My celebration? For me? or for them? And in fact we're celebrating my parent's 22nd Anniversary. So yup its for them. And I in my midst of traveling up and down Jurong and Hougang almost 3 times a week is not spared from having to oversee everything and to do everything myself. I'm tired and sick of having to please people. I really cannot be very bothered anymore. =(

Anyway praise God that He have been graceful though and have provided me in terms of transport and all. Take this Wednesday, I needed to be in camp by 6 and cause of Aureole Practice the night before I have to sleep at home. I'll have to wake up at 5 to catch a cab. There's no way of catching apublic transport and still being on time. Whats more I have to go get my equipment and gears from my bunk which is a far off place from my office, where we're supposed to gather. BUt Praise God, He arranged for my dad to go to Jurong for live firining that day. So not only do I not need to wake up that early but also get a free ride. On top of that he drove me to my bunk pick up my gear and drove me to my office! Of course I give thanks for having a great dad whose willing to do all these for me as well but you can't deny that God is good. =) A great natural father and a Great Heavenly father, well guess I have less to complain than I think I have.

Lord, I pray that you will help ease the trouble in my heart and see that it's alright to plan all the things by myself. Its preparing me to plan for greater events. I need all the exposure and experience that I can get. Whats more I have a group of Bros who will stick by me to help me on Sat. They may not be believers but they I believe they will one day see that you are not just a far off God. You're my Father and their Father. Father, I'm thankful for all that you've done for me all this time. The past 21 years. I may not have known you for a very long time but definitely You've known me for all my life. You're the one who formed me in your image and has blessed me richly. I've experienced life and seen enough to know briefly how I should and want to live my life. I just ask that you'll reveal more Wisdom through your word that I may live my life wisely, righteously, pleasing in your sight. Help me always to see the bright side of things and choose to oversee the negative side. In Jesus's name, Amen!